'Stillness' wont kill me!

I avoid being still. I am creative and imaginative and I know Im alive when I have a project brewing in my mind. Being still feels like too much of a blank canvas for me.
And when I am still, that's when I realise my sadness, hurt and anger. THIS is why I avoid being still! The deep, dark emotions surface, and I'm left with them, venerable, unable to hide.

With yoga, breath and awareness, I breath into these emotions and stop hiding. I breath into my soul and listen with all my heart, and know that everything is going to be ok.
The more I allow the emotion to exist, to 'be' with it, the more I realise that its not the end of me, it wont kill me, and I feel something stirring underneath.

After some time, breathing into it, journaling my thoughts and feelings about it, acknowledging it and its wisdom, I see light.....joy simmering underneath!

ohhh, sometimes I feel I am far too complex, that my soul is tired from all the many memories from the past,
but what I have here & now is glorious!